Don't be a disrespectful kid!!

So Meghan's Grandma Bailey graciously accompanied us to the O.R. appointment EARLY this morning in Syracuse for Meghan.She even brought some DEW!! :-) It wasn't for anything major, just 2 scopes and a ph probe. More on that stuff to come, most has to do with the possibility of acid reflux. We will know much more tomorrow morning after the info from the probe is looked at. She has to wear it for 24 hours. She is actually sleeping now and should through the night. Could be a long night. But many people praying for her and for us....thanks to all of you :-).

 

Anyway, partially due to the vast lack of sleep we all got last night (we had to be on the road by 4.45am.......that's right....A M !!!!) I was very snippy, impatient, barking, acting like a know it all, disrespectful, ungrateful, forever 29 year old P U N K !!!!!!   While my mom was driving me nuts by seeming not to think about things realistically and/or really listening to someone when they are speaking and only hearing a small part of what that person says thereby asking questions that had already been answered 3 times in the rest of the conversation..........it was wrong the way I responded and treated her because most of that for her was due to lack of sleep (which ever since her car accident last winter has not been much sleep at all) and the utmost concern and love for her kids and grandkids. All day I was thinking I was just playing the role of the father/husband who is clearly the head of the family and in control and micromanaging everything I can try to control because I can't do a stinkin thing for my daughter who is out like a light and having a very rough day so I am trying to control whatever I possibly can.     

 

So that doesn't work too well and is flat out wrong.......and not getting much sleep for me is ABSOLUTLEY NO EXCUSE!!!!  Would I have ever treated any other mother this way, or my own mother-in-law....NNNOOOOOO WWAAAAAYYYYY!  In fact I know that if some of the Mom's of some of our teens knew or heard the way I was, they would be in my face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There could have been far more positive interactions than I let there be and cause there to be.

I realized all this throughout the day, but kept thinking I would change my attitude and genuinely tried to do so many times. But without reconciling the bad attitude in the first place, any sad attempt to change on my own was futile. I even got from my wife at home after the kids were to sleep and we were in the kitchen. She said, "you need to call your mama and apologize to her. You treated her like crap. You did me too a little, but I can handle it."  So after I got some of my own treatment of being made to feel like a little kid and I did my own pouting in the living room, leaving her to finish the dishes that I WAS going to stay in there and help with, I started getting on my laptop to watch some youth ministry stuff and........yep you guessed it.......was immediately convicted and started typing this whole thing out.

 

Why did I write this.........to ashamedly allow my sins to be used to teach someone else to treat their parents better......even if they're nuts. Gonna call and apologize now. I love you Mom and I am sorry.

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